Hubs, hunting & housing!

WOAH! So much has happened today. I feel like it's been a complete whirlwind!!! Well first off for those of you that don't know my husband is Cherokee Indian. And the Cherokees have a mortgage assistance program that helps you with the down payment and closing costs of buying a house. We've been working with them and have been in limbo for about 8 weeks now. And today I got the news that we have been approved! Woo! What a relief! This means that we can finally meet with a counselor and repair any credit issues we may have and can work on getting the loan.
This news also means that I am cleared to start looking for a job. We were told when we first started that since I was just getting out of college to go ahead and hold off on getting a job until we were approved. And me getting a job now shows financial responsibility as they say. I have so many different feelings about this. One I am more than excited because I can finally use my degree. Plus it will bring in more money and we can get to where we want to be in life. But I am also nervous. I don't even know where to begin with finding this type of job. Good thing I went to a career school I guess. Hopefully that will help. I'm also nervous that I won't be any good at it. I haven't had a job I cared about in a long time, if ever. I'd really much rather stay home with my kiddos and do what I want, when I want. But that's not really feasible. My hubs wants to start his own business when he gets home, which will mean I need a good steady income to fall back on and rely on. And I want him to be able to follow his dreams. Especially since, if we're being honest as sad as it is, I haven't had any real dreams of my own in a long time. I'm not against going to work. And who knows. I may actually end up enjoying it. I'm also kind of sad. I'm sad I have to get rid of my purple and teal hair. But it's something that must be done. I know people are going to judge me with it. And although I really don't care what people think about my hair I am not willing to put my family's security ahead of it. It's just not that important to me. I am also kind of bummed that I won't be able to just hang out and have a super fun summer with my boys like I had planned. But again, other things are more important.
So all in all this is a very exciting new phase for my family. We are all very excited about it and ready to face all the challenges and triumphs that may come along with this.