Is This It?

Well I have been thinking about my life ALOT today! I have come to the realization that I'm just NOT happy. I am content but not truly happy. I havent been truly happy in a long time. I have changed alot of stuff and things have gotten better but nope still not happy. I am not one of those people that think I have to have this or do that to be happy, but something just isnt right. I dont think its my job, love it! Not my kids either, LOVE THEM! Maybe my marriage? I'm thinkin that might be it. Seems more like room mates than a marriage. And I HATE that. We have only been back together for 2 months. But those 6 months apart did a number on us. And we have been apart before but never seperated. I hope we can get past this. But I also know I dont want my old life back. I want a new better life. A happy life without all the fighting. I am done fighting. It gets me no where.